Okay, so this was meant to be a mother/daughter thing, but Mother's slacking a bit.

Have I mentioned that I'm a fail?
Apparently diets do NOT agree with me. Even knowing that I'm going to look smoking hot when all of this is done, I cheated. Thursday night, I had some cookies. Last night, a slice of pizza. And a soda.

AHHHH! I feel so bad. But I know that I shouldn't beat myself up. I just have to realize that it's that much longer I have to wait before I look the way I want to. Plus, going from eatting whatever you want to eatting next to nothing is hard. Really, really hard.

This was my menu today - minus the pizza and soda.

3.5oz chicken, grilled (one for lunch and one for dinner)
An apple
Half a cup of grapefruit
8 pieces of melba toast
A salad consisting of a cup of spinach and a cup of romaine lettuce with lemon juice dressing

See? It's hard. All I get to drink is water, which isn't actually too hard for me. Plus, I get coffee or tea in the mornings. If I want it. But tea is kind of weird, and coffee is only good if it has TONS of sugar in it. I don't know if the coffee or tea is really a factor. The HCG protocol says to have coffee or tea in the morning, but I'm not a coffee or tea drinker. I'm thinking that maybe that was why it was put in there, for the people that did normally drink someting like that in the morning. Plus, it's really hard for some people to go from lots caffine, either from soda or coffee, to none. Caffine is literally a drug and going without it puts people into withdrawel.

Anyways...
Today I have a total loss of 7.8 pounds. WHOO!

It's not helping the whole cheating thing that I'm still losing weight. If I stalled or even gained a tiny bit, it would make it easier to just stop. At least I would hope it would. I just need to suck it up! SUCK IT UP, ERIN!

Started the HCG(google it if you really want to know) stuff yesterday. Therefore, Mother and I got to pig out all day. Fun stuff, right?

Except I wasn't super hungry, just normal hungry... slightly (what?).
But tomorrow the Very Low Calorie Diet(VLCD) starts. I am having a chicken salad with lemon juice and an apple for lunch. Not really sure about dinner yet.

I've only told two of my friends about this diet that I'm going on. One seems to think it's kind of exciting, because she knows that I really want to loose weight and look great (ha ha, rhymes!). The other... well she thinks it's kind of hokey and not safe, but she's not trying to be judgey. I am kind of worried that it IS hokey. I feel as if I'm getting my hopes up for nothing - an expensive nothing but nothing all the same. I didn't pay for it, Mother did. So... ha ha!

I took measurements and weighed myself yesterday. However, I didn't weigh today, didn't really think it would matter considering I was pigging out all day. Tomorrow I will weigh myself. Maybe it'll be a smaller number! WHOO!

Okay, for the sake of ... whatever, here's the measurements.

Weight : 234.0
Arms : Left, 16.75; Right, 16.75
Neck : 16
Chest : 48
Waist : 41.25
Stomach : 49
Hips : 18.5
Thighs : Left, 28.25; Right, 28.25
Calves : Left, 16.75; Right, 17.25
That's in pounds, then inches, JSYK.
I am a size 18/19 in pants, and L/XL in shirts.

I'm really excited to get down to a 12/13. C, the supportive friend, is going to give me some of her old jeans. They're MEKs. I know, right? Plus, she and I are going to go pantie shopping at VS whenever I get to my goal and need new underwear. XD

I feel really air headed right now, that's mostl likely because I'm tired.

Five til midnight! AHHHH, I need to go drink the last gulp of soda that I will have in about..... 42 days!